but like really, who are you guys?

that's a great question! of course i'll give you the full wall of text, but to the left is also a sidebar condensing some quick facts about our system! i don't want this to be intimidating or hard to read, but i also want to ramble about myself. best of both worlds, y'know?

well then, who are you?

i'm the host of the null collective, and i just go by komaeda or servant. i won't give any alternate names, that's just who i am! i use the same pronouns as we do collectively, with the addition of he/him.

i'm psychotic, and have been living with my 'delusions' for almost half a decade now. yes, i fully believe i am komaeda from hit visual novel/adventure game danganronpa two. there's nothing you're going to do to change it. this is a place for me to be myself, so i won't censor it in any way! im proud of who i am, and it's taken me a long time to get to be comfortable with myself, and i hope if anyone feels similarly to the way i do this site can serve as proof that it's going to be okay, you can keep living, and you can be happy too.

i should probably get into more general details though... like our interests! we love anime, manga, video games, and all other forms of media! our favorite video game is probably pretty obvious from the site theme, but if i had to rule out the danganronpa series, it'd probably be OMORI. basic answer, i know, but it means so much to us, and has inspired us to take on our own RPGMaker project!

what's this site for?

lots of things! below i go into depth about a few different sections i have planned at the time of writing, but in general i want to curate a little internet haven for myself. some parts are designed for others to understand and engage with, others are just for me!

traditional social media feels too much like a performance, and while this is a page that i want to keep looking pretty, i want to take off the mask a bit!

over on the blog section, ill probably be talking much more in-depth about our struggles with mental health, and our experience as a cancer survivor. i've had multiple people tell me i should start one, but tumblr's always just been a place for posting funny images to me, and i couldn't see myself maintaining a wordpress. but from here, i think it'll be alright!

as mentioned above, we're an anime fan, though we're not usually keeping up with the season-to-season offerings unless they particularly intrigue us. we're slow at watching tv shows, but when we do finish a series, we'll be sure to put it up on our review page!

i'm sure by now you've noticed i tend to switch between referring to myself as i and we. it feels entirely natural to me, but i understand it can be frustrating! i'll do my best to stick to i/me language for reviews so they arent a total pronounal nightmare.

i think the final section i want to spotlight is the memory zone! the name is taken from the stanley parable ultra deluxe, another one of our favorite games of all time, but it serves as a hub for my memories of my life as komaeda. it's a page that really serves just as a personal reference for myself, but i want to share the joy too, y'know? it's not all doom and gloom. i remember a lot of good times. some memories are left out entirely due to their subject matter, and it won't be too graphic in any way. it's supposed to be a place of love! what a joy it is, to have your memories.